I discovered how spontaneous I have become in the last two years since the pandemic snatched the normal lives out of us. Depending on how you see it, it could either be a curse or a blessing in disguise.
But, no. I’m not here to dump anything about the pandemic. I have dealt enough to narrate in this little online space what I went through.
I’m talking about my passion—writing.
Continue readingI had so much going on
It was one of those days when I was too preoccupied at work
I still had the nerves though
A little bit triumphant
I said to myself, “you’re getting there.”
One step at a time
It felt like a trip down memory lane
When I was juggling school, extracurriculars and work
It was a productive day
I always ought to be
Even in other stuff I focus on
Today was different
Laser-focused
Calm and collected
In spite of the pressure I have been familiar with
Nerves of steel
Did not let it defeat me
Today I stayed for a little bit
As I always have
The morning wore on me
Sunlight bathed me in its full splendor
The ray of contentment emanated
I have done a great job
Now I am on to the next
It was a normal day
An indifferent routine
People walking past me
With full sound on
I conquered the world–my own bubble
With so much confidence
Until we crossed paths in the footbridge
Scruffy, oozing, radiating
Intoxicating
My heart throbbed irregularly
Butterflies suddenly infested my stomach
My innards shaken to the ground
Knees trembling, mind racing, hands fidgeting
Completely beguiled
Our eyes met
Yours caught mine
That same pair of big, beautiful eyes I fell for
Those innocuous eyes that always send shivers down my spine
I have yearned that same gaze for so long
I wanted it to happen
Wanted it to last
Wanted it to lock
I wanted your intense gaze
It was only a second and a fraction of the next
Unfortunately swift yet magical
I pulled away and acted as if I was totally unaffected
My ears were scorching hot
Breathing ragged
I wanted to look back
But I did not
Your eyes
They were so beautiful
I wish I could stare at it
Forever
I know.
It is not going to happen.
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Originally posted in 2018
Wow. I am a year older today. Feels like yesterday, I was only 20. Now I’m beginning to embark on my journey to 30. #RoadTo30
In short, taken for granted.
More than the recognitions, awards and little successes, I think the biggest lesson I learned this year is to embrace sadness and appreciate yourself more than ever.
Since '92 