Isa. This has been my routine every time I go to a mall and watch a movie. Yes, mag-isa lang akong nanonood. You may think that this is somewhat lonely. In fact, I’m not. Mas nae-enjoy ko pang manood nang mag-isa kaysa may kasama. Ito rin ang kauna-unahang pagkakataon na nanood ako ng pelikula sa sinehan nang dalawang beses. But this movie doesn’t spare me from its brutality. And by saying brutality, I meant, I realize how lonelier I could get because I’m trailing this so called life alone. Yes. Single, exactly.
Dalawa. Sabi ko nga, itong pelikulang ito pa lamang ang pinanood ko nang dalawang beses sa sinehan. Normally I would watch just once. However, this one is an exception.
3. Three does always have a significance in my life. And for some reason, I noticed that I’ve eaten food of different kinds with cabbage thrice this week. E di ba, sabi ni Tonyo at Lea, sasaya ka kapag kumain ka ng repolyo?
Apat. Sa muling pag-nood ko ng pelikulang ito, apat na beses akong lumuha sa magkakaibang eksena. Yes, I made count. I was so affected that I had to act normal and stay still while silently crying in between the funny and melancholic scenes because my fellow movie-goers might notice. I remember, the third one was the most intense cry I had. Tears kept rolling down my cheeks and I couldn’t wipe them off. Ramdam niyo ba ang impact nito sa’kin? Malamang hindi kasi hindi naman kayo ako. Kidding aside, I know that you know, those of you who’ve already witnessed the great story, i.e., Tonyo and Lea’s, how unselfish love for someone else could be.
Five. It was 5 in the afternoon when I decided to drag my feet off to the mall to re-watch this film. I didn’t have regrets because I had a good, silent cry. Felt like crying cleansed my heart and soul today. (May pinagdadaanan? 😁)
Sixth. I chose to sit in the 6th seat of the very last row. The funny thing is, I was both sandwiched by couples. No, I did not feel insulted. Thank heavens. I imagine how exciting it would be to watch a movie. Kasama SIYA. Pero.. Hanggang imahinasyon na lang ata.
Pito. Pitong araw ang hinintay ko upang mapanood muli ang obramaestrang ito. It’s true that “Good things come for those who wait.” Muling binuhay ng Kita Kita ang pag-asang mahimbing na nahihimlay nang kaytagal sa kaibuturan ng aking puso. Ready ako. Ready na ako ulit. Minsan iniisip ko kung dapat pa ba akong maghintay o dapat sigurong itigil ko na ang kahibangan ko. Baka kasi mas magiging masaya ang buhay at eenjoyin ko ang buhay nang mag-isa lang. Lord, do I need to wait for my 3rd pending birthday wish to happen? Torn with choices.
Eight. After watching the movie, I spent 8 minutes in a coffee shop just observing passers-by. I used to see you 4 times a week. Panggabi ako, ikaw naman pang-umaga. Nakikita lang kita mula Martes hanggang Biyernes. At tuwing umaga lang ‘yon. The last time I saw you was July 15th in a company event. You were stunning, really. Nami-miss na kita. I haven’t seen you in 8 business days from then on.
Siyam. Siyam na simbolismo ang nagsilbing sangkap sa tagumpay ng pelikulang ito: puso, saging, repolyo, pagkabulag, paper cranes, daruma doll, Sapporo (beer), music box at higit sa lahat, ang oras. And I will never look at them the same way ever again.
10th. The 10th reason why I love this movie is the way it changed my perspective on various things. While it is true how risky and scary “it” is, it’s also the most wonderful thing ever existed on the surface of the earth. Masarap magmahal kung mahal ka rin niya. Masarap magmahal kahit hindi ikaw ang mahal niya. At masarap pa rin namang magmahal kahit hindi ikaw ang rason ng kasiyahan niya. Kaakibat ng sarap ang sakit (pun intended) at sa pag-ibig, hindi maiiwasan ang masaktan kapag ikaw ay nagmamahal nang totoo at walang hanggan.
Lulubusin ko na. I have a question though. Bakit ganun, kailangan pang mabulag muna bago mo mapansin na may isang taong handang magmahal sa’yo nang lubos? If she didn’t get blind temporarily, she would have not noticed him. Him, who doesn’t have the aesthetic physical attribute that most of us look for in a person. What made her love him? His goddamn humor. His wit. His sincerity. While it teaches that character > appearance, I’m sure that it won’t matter. Let’s be honest. It’s human nature to see and crave for beauty. But I hope somebody proves me wrong.
I remember the cliché that is Tonyo’s line, “Life is short.” Life’s too short to sulk in the corner and miss the rocket of beautiful things. When you get the chance, take it. Enjoy every single moment. Most importantly, love unconditionally.
Shit. Ano na??